No better way to end a night celebrating the poetry of Seamus Heaney than with a Powers whiskey and a bit of craic. The only thing missing was a turf fire, but this isPhoenix, Arizona, the weather still warm on the first Friday of October. No need yet for a hot whiskey, not the way my father makes it as a cure for the cold or whatever ails you, methodically warming the glass before adding two spoonfuls of sugar and a decent ‘nip’ of Powers. So the glass won’t crack, he’s always careful to place a metal spoon in it before pouring in the boiling water. The final touch, a slice of lemon studded with cloves.
A man like my father would have been right at home in the McLelland Irish Library which rises like a 12th century Norman castle from a spot just north of downtown Phoenix, a city that is not even two hundred years old. In my mind’s eye, he is surveying the arch above the doorway, calculating how much limestone and labor went into it, and marveling that it was quarried, cut, and carved in County Clare by master stonemason Frank McCormack, the kind of Irish craftsman who would not be out of place in Heaney’s poetry along with the blacksmith, the diviner, and the thatcher, well-practiced in the techniques and tools of time-honored crafts, just like my father:
If you look at that doorway, you’ll see old history. You’ll see we used the chisel the same way stonemasons did 1,000 years ago.
Within the walls of this latter-day castle, ten of us, including the library’s founder, Norman McClelland, paid homage to the poet, our readings and reminiscences proving again and again that what Heaney had to say applied not just in Anahorish but in Arizona, not only to the Irish but to people anywhere. Lines I had only ever heard read aloud in Northern Ireland were delivered in American voices and then the familiar lilt of Derry, Dundalk, and my own Antrim, as each of us stepped up to the microphone with our notes and our dog-eared collections of his poetry.
Perhaps she was in the audience on Friday evening, the reporter who had asked me if I thought you had to be Irish to appreciate Seamus Heaney’s poetry. Her question caught me off guard, and the way she asked it suggested she was unfamiliar with his work. Still, I responded inadequately. What I meant to tell her was that in the crucible of Heaney’s poetry, she would no doubt find herself represented along with everyone else; she would find “the music of what happens” then and now; she would find not what it means to be Irish, but all that it means to be human and searching, always searching – digging.
After the event on Friday, I remembered a story in The Observer about Heaney and his great friend, the poet Ted Hughes. Young and bold, they were drinking poteen and singing songs in Belfast one evening after a poetry reading, the world at their feet. Sipping my cool whiskey, toasting him silently and so far away from Northern Ireland, I wondered what our poet would have said about the gathering in Phoenix. His words would have been modest and more about us than about himself, I’m sure.
Make the world before you a better one by going into it with all boldness. You are up to it and you are fit for it; you deserve it and if you make your own best contribution, the world before you will become a bit more deserving of you.
Oh, Seamus, I hope you know you made the world a better one for us. Thank you.
The last time I was in the grip of a television series was in the 1970s and Abba’s Fernando was the most popular tune on my transistor radio. It was long before Netflix, box-sets of DVDs, iTunes, Amazon, and illegal downloads changed the way we watch TV. It was before Dallas and bookies taking bets on “Who shot JR?”; before “The Thorn Birds” with wily Father Ralph de Bricassart breaking his vow of celibacy, fathering a child with the lovely Meggie, and still ending up as a Cardinal in the Vatican; and, it was before we watched ‘Roots,’ horrified, as Kunta Kinte was sold into slavery in America and whipped within an inch of his life for trying to escape.
What had me and most everyone else glued to our televisions in the summer of 1976 (other than the Montreal Olympics when an elfin 14 year old Romanian gymnast, Nadia Comaneci, dazzled us seven times over with perfect scores and three gold medals), was “Rich Man, Poor Man,” an epic yarn about two brothers, Rudy and Tom Jordache, the latter played by an impossibly young and handsome Nick Nolte.
We couldn’t have known that “Rich Man, Poor Man” would forever change the way we watched TV on both sides of the Atlantic. We only wanted to know what happened next. The first in the TV mini-series genre, the adaptation of Irwin Shaw’s novel, ‘Rich Man, Poor Man” had it all – the dysfunctional family, sibling rivalry, happiness and heartache, the beautiful girl, politics and betrayal, murder and mayhem – jam-packed into a dozen addictive 50 minute episodes that we all stayed home to watch. Rudy was rich and ambitious, the golden boy; Tom, scrappy and hot-headed, the black sheep. And, “Rich Man, Poor Man” had Falconetti,who along with some of Shakespeare’s bad boys, is one of the most villainous characters ever created. Almost forty years later, a little shiver of fear creeps down my spine as I recall him in the final episode, a black patch over one eye, looking down to the pier where Nick Nolte’s Tom dies from wounds inflicted by Falconetti’s heavies.
It made for fabulous television, and into the bargain, it aired on ITV which, unlike the BBC, had commercials, all of which only helped add to the suspense. I’m not the only person who thinks so. Even Matt Dillon’s character in the movie Beautiful Girls almost succeeds in talking his buddy into missing his high school reunion and staying home instead to watch all twelve episodes of “Rich Man, Poor Man,” back-to-back (the only way to do it) pointing out that:
You can’t tape ‘Rich Man, Poor Man.’ You gotta watch it with the commercials just like everybody else. Man, was there ever a more terrifying screen villain than Falconetti
Just as I waited to see what would become of Falconetti, albeit afraid to look sometimes, I can’t wait for Sunday night’s finale of ‘Breaking Bad.’ True, by the time these words make their way from my computer, across cyberspace, and on to the pages of my hometown newspaper, the speculation will be over. The final episode of ‘Breaking Bad’ will have aired, and its avid fans can go back to their real lives, satisfied or confounded by why it ended the way it did, what happened or should have happened to the middle-aged chemistry teacher erstwhile meth cook and distributor, Walter White. And Jesse. Oh, poor, poor pitiful Jesse Pinkman, not once have you been in the right place at the right time. Can the finale possibly be kind to you?
Admittedly, ‘Breaking Bad’ fever broke late in our house. It took me five years and several reruns of ‘The Sopranos’ to get Tony and Carmela out of my system, and after James Gandolfini died in June, it felt like cheating to throw myself into another TV series, especially knowing I would be seeing Gandolfini again in two movies released after his death, one of which I saw this weekend – Enough Said. Of course, I can’t say enough about his performance, all the more poignant, because it reminds us he is gone.
But last month, when the August humidity forced my husband and me inside to our chilly air-conditioned den, we began binge-watching ‘Breaking Bad,’ all five seasons of it on Netflix. Frantically catching up with everyone else, I found myself both gobsmacked and at the same time wanting even more of what happens in the dark and violent underworld in which Mr. White reveals the Heisenberg within himself, wholly consumed by what my father would most certainly call “pure badness.”
Speaking of my dad, he and my mother have not been watching, and by his own admission, my Editor at The Antrim Guardian doesn’t know the first thing about Breaking Bad either. So how do I explain to them why millions of us are enthralled by the story of what happens next when 50 year old high school chemistry teacher and suburban father, Walter White, is diagnosed with terminal cancer and then partners with a former mediocre student, Jesse Pinkman, to manufacture and distribute methamphetamine in order to provide financially for his pregnant wife and son after he’s gone? It is a ridiculous premise, isn’t it? Add vicious beatings, kidnapping, murder, money-laundering, the Mexican Cartel, a fearsome Aryan gang, an emotionless villain, Gus Fring, and it is tough to watch. But when the going gets tough, as Jesse Pinkman points out early on, “you don’t want a criminal lawyer, you want a criminallawyer.” And, Breaking Bad serves up unscrupulous strip-mall attorney, Saul Goodman. In spite of his sleazy unparalleled corruption of the law, we relish in his razor-sharp one-liners and the occasional flash of humanity.
I don’t know what it says about us or the times in which we live, that a global audience can be transfixed by such a story, one that Blake Ewing, Assistant District Attorney in Austin, Texas, fears might “normalize the idea of meth for a broad segment of society that might otherwise have no knowledge of that dark and dangerous world.” I’ll leave that for the experts to figure out. (Incidentally, Ewing can’t help himself – he’ll be tuning in on Sunday night as well).
I just know that in anticipation of Sunday night’s finale, I find myself transported back to the living room of my family home on the Dublin Road and nights in front of a roaring fire, an epic American drama unfolding on the Mitsubishi TV in the corner.
I would almost be homesick, but then I visit Facebook or Twitter where friends from all over the world are trading Jesse Pinkman ‘Yos” and the lingo of Breaking Bad that is embedded in the social fabric of America. (Yes. People really do talk like that). I can’t help but smile at the extent to which Breaking Bad has connected us, engaged us in big conversations about right and wrong and the nature of ourselves. We are way beyond “Who shot JR?”
Just four short decades ago, a twinkling really, such transatlantic conversations would have been impossible, given the vast oceans stretching between us, and the airing of shows on America television months before anywhere else.
With Netflix, DVD box-sets, and the Internet, time and distance slip away and we find ourselves all on the same page. What a page it is, “YO!”
There is no way for me to adequately convey the inestimable impact of his words on my adult life. He has been with me every day for as long as I can remember, like a pulse. Somehow, I always imagined our paths would cross, and I would be able to thank him for making me brave when I needed to be, for gently teaching me to love from afar the language and the well-trodden lanes of Castledawson and Bellaghy in rural Derry, for “crediting marvels,” in the unlikeliest small things, and, mostly, for inspiring me to set words down on a page, to light up this screen with them, so I might at last be able, “to see myself, to set the darkness echoing.”
Over the years, during the bad times, when friends and relatives have lost loved ones, my condolences to them have been wrapped up in Seamus Heaney’s pitch-perfect poetry. Where do I turn today? For today, only Heaney himself would be capable of producing the right words to assuage Ireland’s sorrow over his passing. I cannot imagine the landscape of my lovely, tragic homeland without him. I don’t want to. So I turn again to something he wrote in Station Island, to a poem he dedicated to his sons, Michael and Christopher, and I imagine them grown and grieving with his wife, Marie, and daughter Catherine Ann, and “taking the strain of the long tailed pull of grief.”
A Kite for Michael and Christopher
All through that Sunday afternoon
A kite flew above Sunday,
a tightened drumhead, an armful of blow chaff.
I’d seen it grey and slippy in the making,
I’d tapped it when it dried out white and stiff,
I’d tied the bows of the newspaper
along its six-foot tail.
But now it was far up like a small black lark
and now it dragged as if the bellied string
were a wet rope hauled upon
to life a shoal.
My friend says that the human soul
is about the weight of a snipe
yet the soul at anchor there,
the string that sags and ascends,
weigh like a furrow assumed into the heavens.
Before the kite plunges down into the wood
and this line goes useless
take in your two hands, boys, and feel
the strumming, rooted, long-tailed pull of grief.
You were born fit for it.
Stand here in front of me
and take the strain.
The radio reminded me that it was Linda Ronstadt’s 73rd birthday yesterday. Driving back from Tucson, her hometown, and listening to the DJ tell us that in these parts she is now better known for covering traditional mariachi songs and political appearances as a political activist, I rewind the tapes in my head and there she is on The Old Grey Whistle Test belting out “When Will I be Loved?” This is very long ago. I’m 16 and bored and wishing I was in America, wishing I was just like Linda Ronstadt. She was my girl crush.
Today, Linda Ronstadt can’t sing like that. She can’t sing at all.
I first found out that she had Parkinson’s disease in an interview with AARP magazine,
In her memoir, Simple Dreams: A Musical Memoir, Ronstadt writes that “people sing for many of the same reasons the birds sing. They sing for a mate, to claim their territory, or simply to give voice to the delight of being alive in the midst of a beautiful day.” This was why Linda Ronstadt sang.
Past tense.
When I was a girl, I wanted to be a rock ‘n’ roll singer. I had crazy dreams of hanging out with Whispering Bob on The Old Grey Whistle Test. I really did. I was 12 years old and living in Antrim, Northern Ireland, when Linda Ronstadt released the Prisoner in Disguise album. By the time I moved out to go to college in Belfast, I knew by heart the lyrics of every song she covered. When her voice rang out from Downtown Radio, I sang along, deluding myself that I was within her range. She covered the best of everything – Motown, soul, country, folk, rock – and she exposed me to the musicians who would score the soundtrack of my life. I think I bought all Little Feat’s albums because she covered their songs, and I only liked the Eagles because they were her backing vocalists. The Eagles were her backing vocalists. And even though they worked for her, she lacked confidence.
I got tougher being on the road with the Eagles. I walked differently, I became more foulmouthed. I swore so much I sounded like a truck driver. But that’s the way it was. I was the only girl on the road so the boys always kind of took charge. They were working for me, and yet it always seemed like I was working for them.
Listening to her records, I would never have imagined the woman behind that heartsome voice could know vulnerability or inadequacy. I should know better. Moving through the world to the beat of a different drum is not always easy. And, before the Silence Breakers were featured on the cover of Time magazine in 2017, helping galvanize the #MeToo movement, Linda Ronstadt had already spoken out, sharing the story of what happened when one of the producers on the Johnny Cash show called her to share notes about her performance. When he offered to come to her hotel room, she turned him down, but then relented, believing he just loved her work and wanted to help her.
I should have followed my first instinct . . . because as soon as he entered my room and closed the door, he removed every stitch of clothing he was wearing.
When she threatened to call security, “he said no one would believe me because of the way I looked and dressed (jeans, long, straight hair, and no bra in the panty-girdle, big-hair South).”
No one would believe her. Of course no one would believe her. #MeToo
I loved everything I knew about her. Mostly her voice. It was all-American, and I wanted to be an American girl. I imitated her accent (the way everyone not from America can sing in an American accent), singing along as she covered, with gusto, Neil Young’s Love is a Rose, Little Feat’s “Roll um Easy,” or – what would eventually become a kind of anthem for my own life, Different Drum. Linda Ronstadt was the reason for my big hoop earrings, the perm I didn’t need, the shirts tied at the waist, off the shoulder peasant blouses, and the odd flower in my hair. I wanted to be her, to stride onstage in a mini-skirt with a tambourine and belt out Poor, Poor Pitiful Me, leaving the Eagles gobsmacked. Or maybe it would be Lowell George’s “Willin” on The Old Grey Whistle Test, the song that still plays in my head every time I see truck drivers pulling into the weigh station this side of the California border:
When I traded Northern Ireland for America and settled in Arizona, I remember feeling a tiny thrill that I had landed in the state where Linda Ronstadt lived, but I never got to see her perform. After suffering those early symptoms of Parkinson’s, she performed her final concert in 2009. Still, our paths almost crossed. And, it had nothing to do with music but everything to do with America.
On the morning of January 16, 2010, more than twenty thousand of us gathered in Phoenix to march from Falcon Park to Sheriff Joe Arpaio‘s Tent City. We were there, in peace, to raise our voices against the Maricopa County Sheriff Office’s immigration tactics, and the indiscriminate attacks and raids against undocumented immigrants living in Maricopa County. True to form, “America’s toughest sheriff” was unfazed and announced that, from inside his jail, officials would play music over the PA system to drown out our noise – Linda Ronstadt’s music.
People arrived from all over these United States, from as far away as New York, Chicago, and Washington D.C. We carried signs that bore simple messages of humanity: “We are Human” “and “Stop the Hate.”
Leading us in that march, among others, was heroic United Farm Workers union leader and activist for the rights of farm workers and women, Dolores Huerta, who made an impassioned plea for the removal of officials like Sheriff Arpaio, and as she spoke to the growing yet quietening crowd. As she spoke, I noticed a group of students from Brophy Prep, a local Catholic boy’s school. Bent in prayer, in support of their immigrant peers, they lifted my heart.
And by her side, was Linda Ronstadt. She led us all the way to Tent City, urging everyone to be peaceful. And we were.
I’m here because I’m an Arizonan. I was born in Arizona. My father was born in Arizona. My grandmother was born in Arizona. I love Arizona, and Sheriff Arpaio is bad for Arizona. He’s making Arizona look bad because he’s profiling and he’s applying the law in an uneven and unjust way, and that weakens the law for all of us.
Almost a decade later, our immigration policies still in shambles, and Ronstadt is still an ally for the most vulnerable immigrants among us, encouraging her fans to join her in supporting the work of No More Deaths – No Más Muertes an advocacy group committed to ending the deaths of undocumented immigrants crossing the desert near the USA-Mexico border. As temperatures soar above 100 degrees on these hottest days of the year, Ronstadt asks that we give generously to help provide food, water, and aid to migrants facing the most treacherous of desert conditions. An avid supporter of all humanitarian aid activists along the US-Mexico border and a member of Green Valley Samaritans, she knows and understands the brutal conditions of the desert and the plight of migrants who try to cross it. She also knows what America should do to help them.
Earlier this year, she wrote:
“I can think of no more compelling crisis than that now facing the borderlands and my view is this: Every individual has the right to receive and the right to give humanitarian aid, in order to prevent suffering and death – no matter what one’s legal status. To criminalize human kindness is a dangerous precedent.”
Speaking truth to power – as she has always done. Thank you, Linda Ronstadt. For all of it.
In peace, love, and solidarity – un abrazo fuerte.